His To Ruin

2. Hows 19 treating you

NOVA

Its finally here! my nineteenth birthday has finally arrived.

Im sure yall are wondering whys she so freaked about her nineteenth and whatnot?

My boyfriend Deshawn and I have been dating for a year and we both agreed that my first time was going to be on my nineteenth birthday. I dunno how we came up with that but i guess it was just a spur of the moment kinda thing, i don regret it, never will never have.

Deshawn and i have been together since he moved into town became and was my neighbour, but we never got together until he started my highschool. The rest is history.

I get out of bed and make my way to my dresser to pick out what Id be wearing for the day, Im the kind of girl that picks comfort over any other thing, also due to the fact that Im on the big side.

I have thick thighs, back rolls and a gut. My body has always been perfect in my eyes I absolutely adore it.

I rummage through my wardrobe and end up settling for a pair of big sweatpants i got from my big brother Chance before he travelled, and a big tee.

I giggle to myself as the memory of my not so successful robbery appeared in my head.

I love stealing his clothes.

Yes its my birthday, yes Im wearing ordinary clothes and yes i also don care.

My birthday is always the same thing every year since i was born, me all alone in my room sometimes its interesting if Chance is around but ever since he travelled, i have to settle for the different time-zone calls.

The only thing Im looking forward to is the time Ill get to spend with Deshawn later. My smile broadens as i remember the one person that makes me the happiest.

I grab my towel once i step out of the shower, my bathe was so quick it almost felt like i didn take any, but i did.

Im not surprised my parents haven called me down for breakfast or even wished me a happy birthday, thats if they
e even home.

They barely remember i exist not to talk of being at home.

Sometimes Chance and I feel like they
e just our distant relatives and not our real parents, thats just the sad truth.

One of the reasons Chance left this town the first chance he got. Most people might be mad at him for ditching me or something of the sorts, but hes my brother and Im always going to be happy for his success no matter what form or shape it takes.

Even though youve not seen him for almost 4

four years?

”Hell come back, i know he will ” i mutter to myself, as if saying it loud will make it come to pass

I pick up my phone and Im surprised to see zero text messages. I mean what did i expect, but atleast i had hope that Deshawn would have texted or something.

I dial his number and listen to it ring repeatedly before he finally answers

”Hey babe ” he exclaims, he sounds completely out of breath

I squeeze my brows together in confusion ”Hey, how are you? ”

He clears his throat ” Im good, Happy Birthday babe ” he says making me forget the slight anger i was feeling earlier

”Thank you baby, for a moment there i thought you forgot ”

”Never how could i forget its the day weve both been waiting for. ”I went to Micheals party last night and got back completely wasted so i forgot to plug my phone to charge, i just did now and your call came in ”

Oh okay, so thats what made you remember…

”You sound out of breath, you good? ”

”Yeah, Im on the treadmill. Hey babe let call you back gotta take care of something ”

”Okay call me back I love yo- ”

I hear the beep before i could finish my statement.

I fall back onto my bed defeatedly, i have no idea what to do now, feels like i got dressed up for nothing.

Don Cry Be strong, you
e not pathetic!

I chanted slowly in my head trying to encourage myself.

I picked up my phone as i decided to scroll through tiktok, its the least i can do to cheer myself up at this point.

Ive spent almost an hour watching all sorts of tiktok videos, pets, dance, comedy and none of them seem to be of much help by distracting me from wanting to call Deshawn.

Call me pathetic or whatever it hurts to know that you favourite person in the whole world is out there somewhere on your special day, and you lack their attention.

Deshawn is not only my boyfriend hes like my best friend, the only friend i have to be honest.

I was too closed off in high school to think anyone wanted to be friends with me, or even be friends with them. High school students can be really annoying sometimes. So I came up with the conclusion that Im better of without friends for now.

And then Deshawn showed up.

I went downstairs grabbed my car keys and got in my car, part of me knew i wasn thinking straight right now but i was going to do it before i chicken out.

Im heading to Deshawns house.

Few minutes later i drive up to his drive way i contemplate parking my car due to the fact that i can hear music, and see numerous beer cans who has a party by this time? I pick up my phone to check the time only to see that its 7:30!

I was watching tiktoks for several hours!

I park my car and walk to his house I considered knocking but i doubt anyone will hear me with all the loud music but I still decide to knock.

The door opens up before i could knock and someone Im very sure does not leave at Deshawns house invites me in.

”Thank you ” i mutter to the strange guy.

I walk in and part of me suddenly feels under dressed, i brush the feeling of as close the door behind me and prepare to make my way to Deshawns room.

People start clapping once Im at the feet of the stairs, at first one guy started it then the rest joined in and i notice all eyes on someone, i turn around to check but nobody. Nope they
e definitely on me.

I look up the stairs and I hear footsteps and see Deshawn coming down

the claps and cheering start to die down ”Hey princess ” i smile at the nickname like i always do

”Why are they clapping? ”

”Its your birthday remember? ” he laughs as if I could forget suddenly

”Yeah i know so? ”

”The party is for you and thats why they were cheering i was upstairs looking for my phone to call you before you arrived ”

I looked around the entire room and all i could see was a room full of people that i didn know and alot of beer cans and weird substances on the table like any other house party Ive heard about from Chance.

This is supposed to be a party for me?

I smile at Deshawn unable to even utter the word thank you.

”Lets go ” he smiles at me as he leads the way to his room

We get to his room and i go to seat on his bed but it smells weird and is scattered so i settle on the chair while he takes the bed.

Ew.

Whats going on today? My entire body and mind is telling me to run for the heels and not look back and usually i listen to my body…sometimes… when Im hungry.

But this time its like a blaring alarm telling me to run and get out of this place, i can almost smell the discomfort.

But my heart is saying another thing, this is Deshawn whom youve been dating for a long time now and very soon you are going to join him at his college.

And as naive and innocent as Nova was, she followed her heart.

”Nova, whats wrong? ”

”Nothing ”

”Come here baby ” he said patting beside him on his bed

Nova run!

”Do you mind changing your sheets first? These ones smell weird ”

He chuckled as he got up to grab new ones ”Sorry ”

I got up to help lay the bed ”Its okay ” I guess this is what i am getting for not listening to my body. I smiled at him

”Much better ” I exclaimed and i could finally lay on it

Deshawn laid down beside me facing me

”Are you sure you want to do this? ”

I nodded

”I love you ”

”I love you too,Nova ”

I moved closer to him and pressed my lips to his, I could feel his hands move around slowly on my body. His hands rested on my back few inches above my butt.

We continue kissing at it feels exactly the same as our other kisses.

What do you mean Nova? Do you want something else?

I dunno!

Wow now my subconscious and I are having a chat, good to see you
e finally loosing it Nova Carter.

I drew back from the kiss, no exact reason for me to stop but i did.

”Whats wrong? ”

”I dunno ”

”Hey hey, its okay it can be like that the first time you don need to be scared Ill take care of you ”

It can what! Might as well list the amount of virginities youve taken!

OH MY GOD

”Im going home ” I get out of his bed and pick up my hoodie.

”What! ”

”Im going ho- ”

”I heard you, why do you want to go home? ” Deshawn got up from his bed and stood in front of me

”What do you mean by, why do i want to go home? ”

”Weve wanted this for a long time, you can just stop now ”

Excuse you?

”I can stop now? I can stop now! ” I ask my tone going higher

”I mean Im already hard and- Don you love me Nova, i thought we were ready for this? ”

”Well turns out Im not, maybe next year, you can wait again yeah? I reply sarcastically ”Goodbye Deshawn ”

Thats if we
e still together

I walk out the door and i hear him behind me

Im at the head of the stairs overlooking everybody downstairs, I ignore them and make my way downstairs.

”You were not even a good lay! ” i stop and turn around to see it was Deshawn who said it

”What? ” My voice comes out in a whimper

He walks up close to me ”You heard me, you think after all these time i spent dating you i really liked you? Not.one.bit ”

”Deshawn wh-

All eyes were on us now and it felt as if his voice just kept getting louder

”Nobody likes the fat girl, i sure don right guys? ” that earned him a couple of laughs and answers from the crowd. i could hear laughing and booing from around me.

I could see them pointing at me some where even recording and I just stood there and received all the embarrassment.

”Lose weight! ”

”Guys like skinny girls! ”

”Sorry you lost your virginity in vain ”

Those where all the words i heard from all around me, but the last one did it

”I didn lose my virginity! ” i have no idea if my voice was loud enough or if they just kept quiet again so i could hear another person abuse me verbally.

Like clockwork all eyes turned to Deshawn and i looked at him too hoping to God that one part of him was still the same sweet boy i love.

”Yeah right ” he replied and the laughter resumes.

i turn around and make my way to the door ny eyesight blurry because of tears

I see a white girl standing in front of me with a smirk ” Oh before i forget, i **ed your boyfriend in his room before you came ”

I turned to look towards Deshawn again and i see him laughing and shaking some of his friends as if he just won one of those games he use to play back in highschool, and they were congratulating him.

But this time it was at my expense.

I clean my tears and make my way to my car, I try my possible best to console myself enough to drive and get home.

Once Im in front of my house and my car is parked, I can help but let out the tears again I grab my house keys and make my way upstairs to my room.

I cant wait to leave this godforsaken town.

Noise from my phone wakes me My eyes dash to my small bedside mirror, my eyes are red and puffy from crying for hours.

I pick up my phone to check the text message

The message was from an unknown number, probably someone trying to continue their sick game from earlier.

The entire idea brought tears to my eyes again.

I hate my life, i hate this!

Nova falls asleep with tears in her eyes and a broken heart, the one person she trusted the most had shattered her heart into a million pieces like she was an object he could dispose of any time.

Her phone received a message again, from the same unknown number.

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